A lot has been on, my thoughts are off in a zone. Contemplating on things such as my personal goals where do I want to go, how to expand, when can I go back school, and then of course friends and relationships. Don’t we all want what is best for ourselves and then where do go?? Life is full of mystery and yet everything is right there full on its plate.
I have been fairly lucky that I have phenomenal friends in each of the Lifestyle, Nudist and Fetish community. Over the past weekend, I have been able to enjoy the poolside with Dr. B(We have fabulous conversations and I appreciate his insights on many different levels.), party at the Lifestyle B&B(Catching up with some friends that I haven’t seen in months and even shared some juicy details with a fellow unicorn!), enjoy my lifestyle couple waterfront property(along with their cats and new puppy), and even a BBQ & movies with my female dominant friends for the day.
My relationship status was complicated. Not easy to balance the D/s and an actual relationship. The power dynamics, needs of a relationship are completely different on both sides, and a whole lot of effort-mental and physical process. It can be a challenge as it was a bit of a long distance and not a local relationship, the balance of vanilla settings, fetish events, work, and then “play time”. All in the matter of having everything per visit is a challenge. Obviously, I have been involved in relationships that were part of the lifestyle, nudist and even vanilla/regular/ jock relationships. Each have their own complications but if one happens to be with me, one must understand who I am, what I do, and most of all at the end of the day, my heart only goes to one person. Am I really looking for love? Someone is in my thoughts but that is whole story on its own….